I’ve been going through a lot lately. These things have made me edgy, stressed, and quick to temper. I realized these so most of the times, I tried to tone them down, but there were once or twice several times that I lost it.
However, one of the things that was very obvious was how I didn’t want to be touched.
As a mother of 3 very young kids, this is almost impossible. My kids are very affectionate and they like to cuddle, lean, and/or touch me. On good days, I’m proud of this because I would like to believe it’s a reflection of how they’re brought up in a home full of love and affection. But on days that I’m stressed, I find this to be too much. I would recoil when one of them leaned against me or I give them a quick hug when they tried to cuddle. I know they might feel weird or even hurt when I do that, but I just feel like there’s just too much of this cuddly lovey dovey stuff.
I don’t have to tell you how this made me feel guilty as hell, but by God, I just don’t want to be touched.
I know people say when I’m older I would miss the times my kids would sit on my lap as we watch Monsters, Inc. for the 100th time. I know they say that I would cherish the moment when my kids still want to hug and kiss me because before I know it, they would be the ones who didn’t want to be touched.
Am I crazy? Am I selfish? I don’t know. But I know what I feel about being touched while I’m stressed and I know it’s unfair to my kids, but I also know there’s nothing I want more than to be left alone.
I’ve been toying with the idea of having a separate blog just for cooking for quite some time now.
It’s nothing fancy or extraordinary because I don’t want to pretend that I could cook haute cuisines (though, I suppose, I would be making several attempts, hahahah) or daydream about my life being like Hassan Khadam from The Hundred-Foot Journey.
I have the idea of having a blog where it serves more as a quick reference that makes sense to everyone, especially those who are short on time or to those who are just learning to cook.
After much considering and slowly compiling my recipes, I have decided to have one!
I still have many recipes to upload, but there it is!
I can’t promise that I will write or upload a recipe each day, but I will try to have at least 2 new recipes every week. I will share whenever there’s a new post. Alternatively, you can also follow (and like, of course!) my FB page of the same name so you will automatically see new posts on your news feed.
If you choose to follow my blog and my page, I thank you in advance and I hope you will be able to take something from it!
I don’t know about you, but I just love chocolate chip cookies. I could really eat them every single day.
When I was younger, while I didn’t have any romantic idea about having the dream wedding or a happy family, I’ve always known that if I ever have either of them, I want to be able to bake the best chocolate chip cookies.
Because of this I have been trying many recipes; some traditional ones that are passed down in my family from mother to daughter and some I improvised from the ones I found on Google.
Today, I tried (yet again) to make these butterless chocolate chip cookies.
Don’t get me wrong, I have nothing against butter. In fact, I love them so much I usually use in a lot of my cooking. It’s just that I ran out of butter and I still want to bake.
These cookies may take a little longer to make because there are several extra steps than the usual simple recipes, but it’s worth it because I made about 75 pieces of cookies (1.5″x1.5″) around 2pm and now it’s 10pm and not a single piece left!
It’s been ages since I last wrote and I feel awkward doing this now.
But I’ve been doing so many things, I can’t find the time to sit down and write.
One of the many things I’ve been doing is taking beading orders for dresses. Aidilfitri is coming, so many people are either getting married or looking to jazz up their outfit for the occasion.
I’ve done beading before, but it’s only for my own or close relatives, but lately I get a few people asking me to do beading for them. It’s turning out okay and quite productive, because while I don’t expect to do this on a full-time basis, I’m getting order quite regularly. What I love most about this is how I see my work getting better and how much I’ve improved when I first started doing beading when I was 15.
Here are some samples of my work and I’m really proud of them. Now off to more beading because more orders are coming so I need to get the ones I have done as soon as possible.
So, talk soon!
*If you’re interested (and in Malaysia/Singapore only for now, soon I think I might expand, who knows!), drop me a line in the comment or to my email email@example.com
Things have been so crazy that I don’t know where the January and February went. I thought it was just 2016 and now it’s March. MARCH.
My eldest is in school and my second is starting preschool. My youngest is driving me up the wall and on top of that, I’m having toothache every other day (mental note: Freaking go see a dentist).
I couldn’t even find the time to write and each time I sit in front of my computer, all I can think about is sleep. I’ve been getting only 3-4 hours of sleep each day that I’m pretty sure I’m up for a role of a zombie on Walking Dead any time soon. I thought I could get more sleep on weekends, but who knew that the kids would still wake up early on Saturdays as well?
God, I need to stop rambling.
I’ll write again when I’m me and when I think I can make more sense. ASDFGH@#$%^&*.