I’ve been going through a lot lately. These things have made me edgy, stressed, and quick to temper. I realized these so most of the times, I tried to tone them down, but there were once or twice several times that I lost it.
However, one of the things that was very obvious was how I didn’t want to be touched.
As a mother of 3 very young kids, this is almost impossible. My kids are very affectionate and they like to cuddle, lean, and/or touch me. On good days, I’m proud of this because I would like to believe it’s a reflection of how they’re brought up in a home full of love and affection. But on days that I’m stressed, I find this to be too much. I would recoil when one of them leaned against me or I give them a quick hug when they tried to cuddle. I know they might feel weird or even hurt when I do that, but I just feel like there’s just too much of this cuddly lovey dovey stuff.
I don’t have to tell you how this made me feel guilty as hell, but by God, I just don’t want to be touched.
I know people say when I’m older I would miss the times my kids would sit on my lap as we watch Monsters, Inc. for the 100th time. I know they say that I would cherish the moment when my kids still want to hug and kiss me because before I know it, they would be the ones who didn’t want to be touched.
Am I crazy? Am I selfish? I don’t know. But I know what I feel about being touched while I’m stressed and I know it’s unfair to my kids, but I also know there’s nothing I want more than to be left alone.
I’ve been toying with the idea of having a separate blog just for cooking for quite some time now.
It’s nothing fancy or extraordinary because I don’t want to pretend that I could cook haute cuisines (though, I suppose, I would be making several attempts, hahahah) or daydream about my life being like Hassan Khadam from The Hundred-Foot Journey.
I have the idea of having a blog where it serves more as a quick reference that makes sense to everyone, especially those who are short on time or to those who are just learning to cook.
After much considering and slowly compiling my recipes, I have decided to have one!
I still have many recipes to upload, but there it is!
I can’t promise that I will write or upload a recipe each day, but I will try to have at least 2 new recipes every week. I will share whenever there’s a new post. Alternatively, you can also follow (and like, of course!) my FB page of the same name so you will automatically see new posts on your news feed.
If you choose to follow my blog and my page, I thank you in advance and I hope you will be able to take something from it!
It’s been ages since I last wrote and I feel awkward doing this now.
But I’ve been doing so many things, I can’t find the time to sit down and write.
One of the many things I’ve been doing is taking beading orders for dresses. Aidilfitri is coming, so many people are either getting married or looking to jazz up their outfit for the occasion.
I’ve done beading before, but it’s only for my own or close relatives, but lately I get a few people asking me to do beading for them. It’s turning out okay and quite productive, because while I don’t expect to do this on a full-time basis, I’m getting order quite regularly. What I love most about this is how I see my work getting better and how much I’ve improved when I first started doing beading when I was 15.
Here are some samples of my work and I’m really proud of them. Now off to more beading because more orders are coming so I need to get the ones I have done as soon as possible.
So, talk soon!
*If you’re interested (and in Malaysia/Singapore only for now, soon I think I might expand, who knows!), drop me a line in the comment or to my email email@example.com
I first saw one of these cakes when I was 10, during a cousin’s birthday party.
I was so envious and couldn’t stop looking at the cake throughout the party. My parents are never big on birthdays and we don’t really celebrate so it’s kind of hard for us to get a birthday cake. By 10, I was used to it, but when I saw this cake, I honestly wished my parents were a little generous in celebrating birthdays.
Today is my daughter’s 4th birthday.
She didn’t ask for a Barbie cake specifically, but whenever she sees one, she always asked me to make one for her. So yesterday, I decided to try and make it. I’m used to baking, but I have never tried decorating a Barbie cake before so I was really, really anxious because being a perfectionist, I obviously don’t want to mess this up.
I worked on this cake for 6 hours, taking my time to do each step. At the end of it, I’m really happy with myself because it’s not as bad as I thought it would be. The only thing is, I forgot to take my piping tips I left at my mom’s house so I had to use a snipped Ziploc to pipe the dress. Even so, I’m still darn proud of it!
I watched the Betty Crocker video for the step by step to decorate this cake and I find that video most helpful and easiest to understand.
Now that I know how to decorate this cake, I’m so going to make it again for the fun of it!