There has been countless weekends where Mohen is not around.
I mean I know why he’s gone but I can’t help but feel as though I am so abandoned, being left alone not only to mother Eros but also to mother myself.
We used to do everything together and I mean everything. But now I feel as though we are getting further apart. Although hope is not lost to get us back together, I do feel sometimes like there is no point in trying because it’s going to repeat itself all over again the next weekend.
I do not give up hope on him to be with me again. Sometimes I do wish that I am not so close to him as how I am because if I weren’t then I wouldn’t be so choked up about him not being around.
I wish we have more time for each other like how we used to…